"Your memory has scarred my skin."
This morning I had coffee with two of the boys I’m traveling to Europe with in August. We did some planning, got overly excited, tried to be serious, and then did some more planning. I cannot wait!
There’s just something about Sunday that always makes me feel so uneasy.
#come what may
May is always going to be the hardest month for me. Last May, I was diagnosed with cancer. I was so lucky that they found it early and all I needed was a round of surgery. 22, and a cancer ‘survivor’. My world was turned upside down. Shortly after, a close friend passed away. She was the biggest influence on my academic life to date. My tutor, my confidant, my mate. Everything I believe in so strongly now, I owe to her for introducing me to. A few days after Kate passed, I left my fiancé. It sounds so weird to say, because when I look at my life now, it blows my mind to think I was engaged. But I was, and I left. He is a great man, and we are now on okay terms, but that just wasn’t the life I wanted, or needed. No regrets, life is so precious. I am approaching my one year check up with my specialist, and I am nervous, but I am okay. Come what may.
I don’t want to be alive on nights like tonight. When nothing feels right, and all I can see is nothing.
I absolutely love everything that you post, but particularly all the magnificent quotes that you have been finding recently. They are just so poetic, and really resonate.
Oh, this made me smile so much. Thank you Dion. Counting down the days till I see you x
"Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those"
"We gotta start teaching our daughters to be somebodies instead of somebody’s."
You know what? I just want to read and write and make art and listen to records and drink coffee and travel and laugh and be free. I have no more time for you, and I’m sorry, but I am not sorry.